Saturday 12 January 2008

It's funny, sometimes, a simple hello, can evolved into a friendship, and maybe if you're lucky, to something more complex and intimate. To me, after that experience, I would have much prefered a friendship, because I knew I like the freedom of being a bachelorette. Well, I got my wish. I can't believe I would find a friend, no, best friend, in 'teddy'. I used to think, since they were friends, that he would stick up to him and disagree with my decision. But things can suprise you sometimes. He, well, let's just say he was more open-minded, and he knew the relationship wouldn't last anyway. Mainly it's a one-way relationship. I'm sorry to be honest about that, but it's true, I never give anything. I just take. I realise that, yeah, that's why I quit. He might want to win the game, but I don't want to play. And 'teddy' knew and understands as well. I am grateful. I found out that I am actually quite a lucky girl. I have real friends. Friends that will stay true and not used me. A real friendship. Hey, I've always known I am lucky, I just never stopped to think how much...

By the way, I heard a song, and I think it suits me and him... really...

Gotta go my own way
I gotta say what's on my mind
Something about us, doesn't seem right, these days
Life keeps getting in the way
Whenever we try, somehow the plan,
Is always rearranged

I'm leaving today, 'cuz I've gotta do what's best for me
You'll be okay

I've got to move on and be who I am
I just don't belong here, I hope you understand
We might find a place in this world someday
But at least for now
I gotta go my own way

Don't wanna leave it all behind
But I get my hopes up, and I watch them fall, every time
Another colour turns to grey
And it's just too hard to watch it all
Slowly fade away

I'm leaving today, 'cuz I've got to do what's best for me
You'll be okay

I've got to move on and be who I am
I just don't belong here, I hope you understand
We might find a place in this world someday
But at least for now
I gotta go my own way

What about us? What about everything we've been through?
What about trust?
You know I never wanted to hurt you
And what about me?
What am I supposed to do?
I gotta leave but I'll miss you

So...
I've got tp move on and be who I am
Why do you have to go?
I just don't belong here, I hope you understand
I'm trying to understand
We might find a place in this world someday
But at least for now
I want you to stay
I wanna go my own way

I've got to move on and be who I am
What about us?
I just don't belong here, I hope you understand
I'm trying to understand
We might find a place in this world someday
But at least for now
I gotta go my own way
Gotta go my own way
Gotta go my own way
Gotta go my own way

2 comments:

Unknown said...

... what the?!?!

aH_hUi said...

wat la... true ma... veri funny meh?? dun wan talk 2 u ady, nt sentimental d... =.=||